Lack of music

I have somehow lost my music. This sounds strange, no, I mean it. Nothing quite seems to tickle my fancy when I go to upload, and the stuff I do manage to find is dull and inappropriate. Tonight I have a date with my pc.

Last night I had a date as well. I am not a bad person, I know this, but sometimes the thoughts in my mind make me think... well... maybe sometimes I get possessed by an unpleasant individual. I am feeling more and more like a man. But I realized something. When you get hurt and lose the capacity to fall for somebody, its not a conscious choice. You just can't do it anymore. Its like that part of you shuts off (hopefully temporarily) and leaves you callous. And although I don't want to be that way, I must admit its somewhat comforting to think that I won't be falling in love any time soon. It would be nice to get through a year at Oxford and not be hurt. It gets in the way of things.

Tomorrow night I've got a quasi-high school reunion dinner of sorts, I'm actually quite looking forward to it and hoping that people will show up. Since I doubt anything worth reporting will happen between now and then, I will sign off. Life is dull when you're in some sort of relationship.