Some full relationship thing...

As Allan would say: Calm down, have some dip.

I'm jaded and fucked up, I've been mangled and now I can't let myself let anything happen.

Talking to Melissa today, who is suspecting her significant other of being unfaithful a few weeks before he was due to move in... this makes me wonder why I would ever let myself get into that sort of situation. So I found myself freaking out. This early into anything it is not a good idea. So I freaked out and ate and now I feel guilty and stupid.

I vascilate wildly between acceptance and rejection, fear and desire. My mind doesn't know what to tell me and damned if anything else my body knows right now makes sense. I'm paranoid and mentally distracted. I am operating on very little sleep. Go to bed.