Time flies...
Time flies when you are having fun, it also flies when you are in class all the gd time. Man, I swear I haven't been in class this much since high school... and even then I think I skipped enough to make my days shorter than this.
Now, I realize I have been ambiguous lately, which is odd, because nobody here will read this. Its mostly because I have been forced to write when I am either on a computer that signs me off after ten minutes, or writing during a break when the line for computers is right behind me. Not conducive to honest expression even if they aren't looking at what I write. So here is is, because I have 15 minutes before class, the honest truth as to what has been going on.
I have learned a lot for a week, its been really nice. I have met some cool people but nobody yet that I believe I will stay in touch with after the program. At this point they are all my five week friends. That's fine. I'm also learning to detach myself from things and stop feeling like its so gd important to be close to people and have some degree of acceptance. Daniel has been very helpful in this regard. I gave him this address yesterday, so I know that he is out there. So I'd like to say a nice warm hello to him and a big thank you for all his intelligent conversation and insight. Its refreshing, much appreciated, and that is just the beginning. So I guess I will run down my peeps here, using initials, because I don't want to be that graphic.
J'aime Jeff. We've been nightswimming at the beach twice in a week, and he's nice and tall for cuddling. I adore his eagerness and his smile, he is always so thoughtful, a rare find. I am really looking forward to getting to know him better, and hopefully having a cooking party.
My Wednesday night kiss. He told us how he never had such intelligent conversations, and I can't help but attribute that to his academic background. I really want to have more conversations like that with him, because he has so much in him to explore. He is also someone I want to get to know better.
My elusive crush. Well, I am just so used to this sort of situation, and yes of course I create them myself. Its fine, I am still fairly twisted and it is probably better to not have someone to lean on right now anyways. He is just bloody awkward with me now, and I regret that, because he is interesting and intelligent and I want to know more.
Alicia is my favourite girl thus far, she's smart and honest and silly. I will miss her this weekend while she is in Victoria. We have already had good times.
The latest in a long line of friends to attain the title 'Drunky McDrunk'. He's so good to me, says such nice things. His 'come have a drink' pep talks are always spattered with compliments and his heart is good. He's also good fun.
Le 'bitch', and I use that term loosely, because I think she is fun and honest and I appreciate that in women. I hope she and I fall in together.
Fuck, ran out of time. Gotta go to class, finish later.
Now, I realize I have been ambiguous lately, which is odd, because nobody here will read this. Its mostly because I have been forced to write when I am either on a computer that signs me off after ten minutes, or writing during a break when the line for computers is right behind me. Not conducive to honest expression even if they aren't looking at what I write. So here is is, because I have 15 minutes before class, the honest truth as to what has been going on.
I have learned a lot for a week, its been really nice. I have met some cool people but nobody yet that I believe I will stay in touch with after the program. At this point they are all my five week friends. That's fine. I'm also learning to detach myself from things and stop feeling like its so gd important to be close to people and have some degree of acceptance. Daniel has been very helpful in this regard. I gave him this address yesterday, so I know that he is out there. So I'd like to say a nice warm hello to him and a big thank you for all his intelligent conversation and insight. Its refreshing, much appreciated, and that is just the beginning. So I guess I will run down my peeps here, using initials, because I don't want to be that graphic.
J'aime Jeff. We've been nightswimming at the beach twice in a week, and he's nice and tall for cuddling. I adore his eagerness and his smile, he is always so thoughtful, a rare find. I am really looking forward to getting to know him better, and hopefully having a cooking party.
My Wednesday night kiss. He told us how he never had such intelligent conversations, and I can't help but attribute that to his academic background. I really want to have more conversations like that with him, because he has so much in him to explore. He is also someone I want to get to know better.
My elusive crush. Well, I am just so used to this sort of situation, and yes of course I create them myself. Its fine, I am still fairly twisted and it is probably better to not have someone to lean on right now anyways. He is just bloody awkward with me now, and I regret that, because he is interesting and intelligent and I want to know more.
Alicia is my favourite girl thus far, she's smart and honest and silly. I will miss her this weekend while she is in Victoria. We have already had good times.
The latest in a long line of friends to attain the title 'Drunky McDrunk'. He's so good to me, says such nice things. His 'come have a drink' pep talks are always spattered with compliments and his heart is good. He's also good fun.
Le 'bitch', and I use that term loosely, because I think she is fun and honest and I appreciate that in women. I hope she and I fall in together.
Fuck, ran out of time. Gotta go to class, finish later.
posted by Care @ 9:43 p.m.
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