I know, six days...

... and what have I been doing with myself? Drinking, losing my voice, working, schooling, kissing a french boy, being jerked around and being hurt... the standard stuff I suppose.

Don't really feel like talking right now, I kinda want a big hug from someone, and he's not accessible right now. Its not the guy who jerked me around, but I can't get at him without going through the former. Boourns.

I am really hurting, I hate boys. I'm really starting to consider giving up on any of them that remotely appear interesting... the interesting ones are always screwups who will break your heart. From now on its asexual men and safe 'boy next door' types. There's one down the hall, but I worry that my inclinations towards him are due to my heartbreak and not due to any particular liking... although I did check him out in first year.

Anyways, things are busying up and I will try to keep this up to date, I'm bad at that though. Its my 21st soon, and I'm starting to have that 'this is not where I should be at 21' freak out. Stay tuned, it should be fun.