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I'm insane. Utterly incoherently insane.

Whether its senioritis, lust, infatuation, neurosis or a combination of the above... I have utterly lost whatever sanity I had. The worst thing is that the things that I want to do to make it better would actually make it worse. Much worse. They are already pushing the envelope.

I cannot do anything, I cant' focus, I am totally unmotivated and insecure.

I can't handle this.